pre-note:This is mostly me talking to myself.I do that a lot . Also i finallly got enough engalees and humor sense and all to understand calvin and hobbes, Falling in louwe with it.
Once upon a time long long ago, so long ago..that is 3 years back -11th starting la I chose Computer science group.. just because it sounded a coolz and because I got enough CGPA in the overhyped waw-of-the-waw tenth board exams but Mostly because I cant draw for shit and for some reason was convinced that I suck at bio cuz of that.
what? you’re thinking why not commerce a? Poda.
commerce and all not even in the picture, I mean.. bleddy they will Wonnnnly teach/glorify/soap-pottufy science subjects and then suddenly say “If you want means you can take commerce..I wouldnt recommend it, but you can take…i mean…. you seriously shouldnt unless you have no other friggin choice...but you can take.”
Bleddy who will feel like going through the effort of fighting with your parents and take it after this man? only half way through 11th people will realize ki they got senjified(Screwed).
Then after choosing stream, next step is what? over ambitious parents will paavama put all their hopes (read:Emotional-Athyaachaar) and join us off in one JEE Coaching class(notice how its always called coaching classes, because they don’t wanna be confused with the ‘tuitions‘ that people go for boards which is beneath them .yuckz)
Jee classes are the Biggest-Scam-In-The-Indian-History-Of-The-Education-System(Brilliant Start-Up idea though) but to be fair, I had the beshtu parents, who never forced me into any thing. But all this I myself went and got myself Senjified. I joined in this one centre which i wont name for legal reasons (hint:rhymes with kaakaash). there 2 years went by, mostly with me complaining like a bitch about how i have to travel 452 hours :departure from porur and arrival at adyar.
Then for some reason school la they have something against these jee classes, and jee fellows constantly belittle boards. and like a child in a bad marriage, all students will be stuck in between this ego problem.Shabba from every side they will throw homework assignments tests and all and say study daily. lol.
as if we study daily. anyway day before exam only we will call the good-gals of the class and say “eyy send notes pictures in whatsapp group dii”. and sit and mug up and vomit in exam to get some marks.
Around February only we will start propera studying for boards- then because of the constant bombardment of sample papers mock exams clusters and what not, concept of studying for the sake of learning and all is obsolete.(Cue:Sophisticated word) by this time, we somewhat crack board exams’ formula methods and get somewhat good marks also. Then in one week we will sit and try our best for entrances and that also something will click or else also no problem. because at the end of the day, all colleges more or less same educational standards only. chumma tag difference and all is one jujubee-self-hyping thingy like that All-iz-well BS aamir khan does in 3 idiots.
True to our stereotypes, majority do choose engineering. though we like to pretend we have full choices and all. just-u illusion.
Society will extend one finger and say “choose between the fingers kanna” .
if you ask “where is other finger??” means
it’ll show Middle finger.
But you see, I went through my entire school life having never failed…at anything. meaning not like small tests and all, just generally speaking i never failed.I did pretty well in my boards, got into a good-ish institute to the course I adamantly chose. I never badly failed at any extra curricular activities or sports I tried, Never had any issues so severe that I felt unhappy or depressed. I never felt like a failure.
But the Absence of failure is not Success.
There is this quote of J.K. Rowling
“It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all – in which case, you fail by default”
The fear of failure, and the embarrassment that came with it stopped me from trying anything, and this was something I wasnt even aware of. It was just subconsciously wired into me. and whenever I thought about why I wasnt happy or succesful, I ended up blaming others. But there is an expiration date on blaming society. once you are aware and slightly mature, its upto you to try and take control and challenge yourself to do something in real life as much as you do on Facebook.and while we are on that topic, bleddy stop facebook challenges da. Chumma ice bucket,aai bucket nu.
So,Go and pursue what makes you happy, that’s what passion is – its things that make you Happy
Because Happiness…Is Always The Goal Of life.
Apart from getting an IIT seat, that is.